before raya~

there's nothing i have to worry about raya, such as cookies, rendang, all sorts of foods, clothes or whatever lah. i don't have any feeling for raya at all.. i spend my time on thinking about my exam that will start straight after holidays! shit, i hate that..
honestly, i haven't studied at all yet, and at the beginning of tiz year i juz focusing on the certain subject. hahha, there are bio (of course!!) sej and add math..but those subjects juz until the second chapter, i guess =p hahah!

but today, my sister is coming! if as she will not come, i think tat i could not celebrate raya, jus celebrate in silently... but, thank god lorh! now, my brain contains with a lot of NOTHING!
wat i am gonna do for my exam! huh, i am so sorry, cuz i should not tell you about my personal probs! i'd risk myself... okay fine, there's juz my confessions, full stop!

hate my school!

i really2 hate my school! i hate the environment, surrounding ......
fuhh! it makes me feel afraid all the time, makes me nervous, makes me feel the sense of kebijaksanaan students there. it is just like sumthing really2 membebankan hidop i!! yeah, tis is because kat sane peraturan ketat nk mampos, keje sekolah berlambak.....
aduh..i don't know why, but i always feel afraid!!..

but the truth is, mmg i rase takot sedey being there..
the most good time to me is when the school hours is ended already! yeah, i dont't care how far my school is from my house, but the environment there makes me feel AFRAID+SAD...

but, i have to think positive! this is the time to change the mindset of mine. i should bersyukur sebenanye dapat masok skolah tuhh. even though there's a lot of assigment, homework, but all of that are my fault.

i really want to be independent!
the innocent one,
anna~