just be honest.

In this reality life, we can't put ourselve in the character that we really wanna be. we cant do anything beyond our abilities. it damn sucks, really hate being who are we. but, that's not exactly what m i gonna confess this time.

i just wrote on my status at fb about my feelings. i really damn confuse, not sure what i feel towards him. it seems like, i wanted him to be mine. really2 wanted. he came to my life only a moment and he comes back..now!. every time i saw his pic, it seems like, i see my prince charming(very lame...) but there's nothing happened to my heart,as it does not beat . feel like i just really want him to be mine.

always thinking, as a little girl, what am i really understand bout LOVE..? what is love actually..? what does it mean..? what are the hidden meaning..? what will happen if we have this feeling..? i really want the answer. i don't want to wait till my age do corrode my uneducated love-style.

im deserve to get those offers!!

he2, it's been a while, i remember the time when i was waiting for my SPM result, but now, i got offers from all tertiary institutions i wannted. well, it shows how lucky am i, . dduhh!

first, i got from, uniten, then, mmu and now.. MATRIKs!!. so, surely i will take 'sc hayat' as my bio is better than physics. i heard from people said that once u get into matrik, the schedule will be soooooooo tight! well, that makes my heart stop beating~!

yeah, surely it is cuz it takes only a year before reaching a degree level. hurm, that's good. well, the registeration's date is on 10 mei. waa..its too fast. sometimes i wonder could i be really ready to face it..? well, i have been rest for a very long time.

huhhhhhhh...

been living in NOwhere!~

it's been long time im not updating my blog. hahaha. my life is not really get anyone's attention YET.
btw, i just got offers from two private UNi, which are UNITEN n MMU. wow, i have been expected bout it already actually. but, the offer from matric keep me waiting! argh..~
well, the result will come out tiz 16hb. hu3. nothing more to talk. after i receive any infor tiz friday, i will drop some words.
cheerio~

waiting for matriculation's offer~

hey, long time i am not blogging , since i was staying at seremban after a big-big examination in my life~! and, i just got the result, and to me, it's really worth it! he3, i did not put a lot of effort on my studies as i totally was damn pemalas over couple of year (2009/10) wow, i did not expect, to get any A's in my result slip, and , i guessed, i would get a lot of credits! he3, tat's what we call miracle~
so, here the result of mine~
BM = A
ENG = A
Math = A
Sej = A
Bi0 = A- (this is wat we call natural talent! talented in bio since a long-long time ago~)
Chemist = B
p.I = B+
Fiz = C+
AddMath = C+

I really dont know n confused , thinking wat course am i gonna take! my father suggested to take engine~, hurm, i prefer lots! medic, engine, law, bussines, ! i really love all of them, but can choose only one. Nothing speacial here, just confused~~

Beberapa bulan, kat skolah btp dah berlalu..hurm. aku dpt bnyk kwn! yup, bnyk sgt kwn, laki ngn pompuan.hahha! ..best kwn ngn diorng...tp, aku nyh pon, tak baik sgt. syarina, kwn baik aku kater, aku nyh, kdg2 wat org terasa ngn aku, tp tah lah, mgkin aku erus teringtkan kwn2 lame aku kat kosas, smapi, diorng terasa lah, aku asek ckp pasl, KOSAS KOSAS KOSAS.... tp, aku pon lame2 phm...aku ngn kosas, maybe ade jodoh, n aku akn kembali ngn kwn2 aku. YUp, satu impian aku mse tuh, dah tertunai, aku dpt ke kosas skunk...hurm, kay, vlk pd citer kat btp.
AKu gler enjoy n study pon enjoy gak. Meyh aku g taw korang, bnyk gak bdk2 form 3 kat citu, jemsem2 wooh, hahah! :P aku dew gak, crush kat sorang nyh, tp dye cm tak de ape2 feeling kat aku, aku nyer tanggapan lah. URm, ape yg aku plg enjoy study kat sne, adalah study SC!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah babe! aku ske gler study sc!! cikgu tuh, slalu gak tnye soklan2 comman n basics berkaitan ngn kehidupan, n slalu aku dp jwb soklan tuh.

3 Sefahaman

Bdk laki2 yg first skali tgor aku, yg sedang duduk di belakang skali, tengah2 lak tuh, ialah tak lain tak bukan, BUT. Bdk yg pelik, dgn spect dye, n ketinggian dye yg aku tak penah pikirkan kan ade org tinngi cm die ketika berumor 15 taon, membuatkan aku mendifunisikan die sbg bdk pelik! hahaha, sory BUT! then, aku dok sebelah bdk2 pompuan, mereka nyh rajin, agk skema lah gak, hehe, diorng rajin, tak mcm aku, pantang sgt bukak buku dlm kelas, aiyoOO!!
Then, smpai umah, ape jd???? aku duk kat bilik aku. MSe tuh, bilik tak decorate agy, tp bau cat dye! URGH!! aku teringtkan kosas again..! KOSAS! tuh yg aku fikirkan mse FEB and MARCH 2007!!!!!!!!!! aku menagis, mlm siang. Aku tepon nadia, sms die, tap tak la lame... ngn KAI! yes, my best fwen ever...aku chat ngn die,,,dye arrr kwn yg baik, yg membuatkan aku agak calm mse tuhh..
Tak lame kemudian, aku ade dpt sorang kwn, baik gak, tak lah sekepala ngn aku, tp kitorng sgt best kwn same2, n dye kwn rapat aku kat btp. AKu citer kat dye, aku msh nangis agy, even da beverape ary kat btp. urmmmmmmmmm............. so, kitorng kwn rapt...

to be continued...

sumpah rase nak matiii!!!!!!!!!

sensitive giler aku...aku ngah sedeyh, frust?? maybe , tapi most probably..tak!
aku hidup berlandaskan kenangan2 aku semasa form 3.
recently, i spent all nite, crying bout the previous memories...that was such great memories in my life..
cite nye, mule begini...

Aku pindak ke BTP, dgn rase reluctant gler!! a mana tak nyer, aku da kenal lama ngn kwn2 aku..sejak skolah rendah, dan start secondary kitorng dah rapat..! our relatuonship was began with chemistry...n go on by physics. so, pd ary nak pndah, kat skolah kosas, kwn2 aku buat party for me, that was so special. they are, fatin, nadia, intan, kenbar,fana, n ade agy...
gang, korang pon taw kan, aku nyh, jenis yg sensitive. so, menda2 mcm nyh, aku memang ingt, and the big present yg korang bg aku tu pun, it was really great! but, ape hadiah tuh?? reader tak taw! huhuh, nad, intan! secret taw :P
PArt sedey, urm..aku pon nangis la ngn mereka...n aku tak sanggup sgt nak tglkan kosas. Aku smpai bndar tasek puteri (BTP), waktu tuh da mlm, boleh bau agy cat dan perabot dlm bilik aku. even, aku dpt perabot baru, bilik agak bsr dr previous rumh, aku ttp menangis mlm tuh, smapi membuatkan aku tak mau tidur, becuz aku takot hari esok!!
Esok, dgn mate yg benggak, air mate aku tak gak berhenti. Sebab ary pertama kat skola baru, mak aku iron bj, aku tak semgt nak g skolah, mandi pon...hurm aku NANGIS gak (terok tak??) then, tgk cermin, pakai tudung...dengn tak semena-menanya aku menangis b4 g skolah BTP. Smapai skolah btp, waahh!!!!! Skolah tuh, physically, was perfect! beautiful! tu aku mampu katekan skunk, but kalo mse tuh,,, haty aku hanye menyunpah nyumpah skolah tuh, n betapa sakitnya haty aku sbb pindah kat situ. G kat office, daftar n check sume sijil, aku ditempatkan di kelas 3S. Dengan berat hati, aku berjalan mengikut guru tuh.
to be continued..........